Between a rock and a hard place

Mentally, I feel like I am in the middle of a rock and a hard place.

My mind tells me to do one thing and people tell me to do another…

I don't know what to do.

My mind is going 15 different directions at one time.

What do I think?

What do I do?

Am I who God called me to be?

These are thoughts that run through my head all of the time.

Days like today it stands out in my head a little more.

As I contemplate and pray over this, I am reading about the transfiguration in Luke 9:28-36.

Jesus takes his inner group of disciples up a mountain to pray.

Once up there Moses and Elijah appeared as the appearance of Jesus changed and his clothes became as bright as it says a flash of lighting.

Peter, James and John were in awe of the situation they saw before them.

They didn't know what to do or think and finally Peter spoke up and said this in verse 33 and this is what happen in verse 34-35…

"Master, it is good for us to be here. Let us put up three shelters – one for you, one for Moses and one for Elijah." (He did not know what he was saying.) While he was speaking a cloud appeared and enveloped them, and they were afraid as they entered the cloud. A voice came from the cloud saying, "This is my Son, whom I have chosen; listen to him."

Peter didn't know what to think and said something before really thinking it through.

He didn't know what was going on or the full story behind what was going on.

Do we ever know the full story or do we speak before finding out?

Peter spoke and the voice from the cloud told him to listen to Jesus.

How often do we do this in faith?

I struggle with when to speak up on a matter.

I have been listening, watching and waiting for God to move.

Is he waiting for me to speak?

My thoughts are all over the place.

When I come to times like this I try to contemplate what's going on and pray over it.

I seek wise council and go from there.